We had the most amazing training/playtime yesterday! i am still new to slave life and to playtime so many times it doubles as training for me to work on something new with Master.
Last night Master put a box of toys together and called it a "care package". He had me add my training collar, the "red beacon" (that's what i call the butt plug) and my ball gag and told me to get completely undressed. Master put on my training collar and told me to get my care package and follow Him.
i was terrified! i thought We were going outside, into the world, with me completely naked and a box of toys that most people wouldn't understand.... not to mention that the butt plug can evoke quite an emotional response in me and this was only the 3rd time or so that We have used it and only the 2nd time that it would be in for any amount of time. i was very concerned but i know Master doesn't want to flaunt this lifestyle in His neighborhood, He works with lots of His neighbors and so the odds of Him taking me out where We could be seen were not super high. However, in July, for my first training weekend, He had me naked in His backyard for a while. At least now i am 40 pounds lighter than i was in July and so i would be a little more comfortable with my body.
So, Master opens the door into His garage and tells me to get the care package and follow Him. "Master, i don't think i can move yet." He laughed and replied "Obey me kitten." Which, i did.
We went into the garage and then Master opened the attic steps and, on hesitant but obedient feet, i followed Him up the steps.
Master showed me where i would be standing for Our time in the attic and then instructed me to put the butt plug in.
As i said, the butt plug evokes a very emotional response in me because of my past. Also, last weekend was the first weekend i put it in myself and it was a difficult process, inside the house, laying down, with a blanket and Master right beside me to help me not freak out. This time, i am naked, in a cold attic, no blankets, and having to squat to insert it. i knew this was coming, i knew that i would start to freak out in my head, and so i was ready. i kept mentally saying "i am a slave" in my head and working on thinking about using it to serve my Master. i desperately don't like to fail Him, i want to please Him SO BADLY that i was able to insert the plug and get into my spot to stand.
Master began tying me up, He starts with my hands that ended up tied together and then tied above my head to the rafter in the attic.
my ankles were tied with my legs spread and each tied to a different support beam in the attic.
While Master was tying me up i said "I'm losing it Master!" and He knew, without any further words, that i meant i was losing the plug and He reached up and stuck it back in before it came completely out. "I have something planned to fix that in a minute." And fix it He did! Master tied a rope around my waist and then He put it between my legs from front to back so it was touching my vagina and holding in the plug.
The entire time He was tying me up, He had this great grin on His face. He doesn't talk a lot when He is preparing me for a scene, but i can tell He had been thinking this through all week and had a plan and was VERY excited to finally be fulfilling His thought process.
i was already in a nice sub headspace when Master began. He talked to me through a lot of the scene, talking about being a slave and what it truly means. He talked about being proud of my service and of being a slave. He talked about proper pride and not false pride.
The entire time He was talking to me, Master had the crop and was hitting my butt, my back, my sides and my breasts. i was having to watch how loud i was because there are open vents in the attic and so i was really enjoying the challenge of not screaming loudly but channeling my pain into my breathing and some nice, sexy noises. i have been feeling the pain more since losing 40 more pounds ( a total of 80 lost so far) and i tend to just make noise to deal with some of the pain and those noises aren't generally sexy, so i was working on making the noises not too loud and sexy. Master said that i did well with that afterward.
Once Master was finished with talking to me, then He got out the nipple clamps. i began crying immediately. This is one pain that i really struggle to turn into a pleasure. i was crying and thinking i can't do this, i can't handle being tied up (which i love by the way!), the butt plug, being hit with the crop (or something else that Master brought up that i hadn't seen yet) and the nipple clamps. i was crying and saying "No, please Master, no thank You, please don't". Master is very patient and He talked me through it. He explained that He knows they aren't fun but that they are something He enjoys using on me.
"kitten, they can come off if it is too much, and they will come off when We are done. " "i know Master! That is what i am scared of! The taking off, they hurt more coming off than when they are on!"
"I know kitten but I want to use them on You."
i want to please Him and i wanted to try for sure but i was so scared of failing, of not being able to handle it, but Master told me to take a deep breath in and then He put the clamps on.
" i am a slave, i am a slave, i am a slave." i repeated this over and over, out loud and in my head, to help me keep my focus on serving Master through this pain. i focused on breathing and focused on Him and was making it through okay, not doing great but doing okay.
Then, Master got out the Magic Wand. He used it on me while He also used the crop. SO MUCH GOING ON!!
This was the most intense and longest scene We have done so far. The magic wand was amazing! It took my nipple pain to pleasure almost immediately.
"I want orgasms so bring them on." His voice is so deep and so sexy, especially when He's telling me what to do in scene.
"Yes, Master," and then i came so hard for so long, it was amazing!!
Master put away the magic wand and said " Give me a number between 1-15".
"Eight."
"Okay, do You want Your gag?"
"May i please try without it and use it if needed?"
"Yes, kitten that will work."
And then i saw that Master had the rubber hose in His hand.
He gave me 8 hits with it and as each hit, i was almost completely breathless but they feel so good. The thud, the sting, the breathlessness... ohhh it is probably my favorite toy He currently uses.
i made it though all eight, keeping count and not being too loud.
When Master was finished with that, He untied me and told me to get into "low position". i got into position, as low on the attic floor as i can get myself.
"Are you as low as you can get?"
"Yes, Master."
"I don't think so, you're still in the attic. Get down and get low."
So i got down, into the garage and got low.
Master did a recap of what He talked about and how some other things about not having false pride.
Then i was able to cuddle on His leg, after thanking Him and kissing His shoe.
After a few minutes, We went inside and Master wrapped me in a blanket and held me for a while, while i recovered.
Then, it was time for a quick shower and bed with more cuddling as We fell asleep.
What an amazing time. I'm still in such an amazing headspace today. Master was proud of me for making it through, even when i thought i couldn't.
i really liked what He talked about and how i can see my place as a slave as something to be proud of.
i hope ya'll have had fun this weekend!
~His kitten
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