Master and i had an AMAZING weekend:). On Saturday, We were up close to tigers! So awesome:).
i had a rather emotionally difficult time Saturday evening dealing with some things from my past and Master asked if i needed a beating. i had just been thinking of asking for Him to, He knows my slave heart so well:).
i couldn't take much at all before i was a bawling mess in Master's lap. It was all emotional and needed to be felt and let out. Thankfully, Master was willing to help me get it out. i was so thankful He sat with me and held me while i cried. While He was beating me with the cane, Master stopped to switch to the crop and He paused and took a drink of His tea. This was so significant to me, just a show of how completely in control He was ( and is) while i was a messy puddle of emotions, He was very calm and I control. i'm so so thankful for that fact!!
Then, Sunday, i was still feeling emotional and Master slapped my girly bits.. this was new and it hit in those emotional things from my past and i began to cry again. It wasn't terrible but some. Later, i was still feeling emotional and some more things had come up through the day and so Master allowed me to lay with Him on the couch and cry and cuddle. It was so amazing to be so close to Him and for Him to tell me it is okay for me to cry, that i need to feel. He is so amazing.
When it was about time for me to leave, Master held my throat and bit the back of my neck, so i could just rub it this week and think of Him. Then, He got the hose out and gave me a quick beating to feel while i drove home.
Master also allowed me to drink from Him just before getting into the car.
i am so amazed by this Man... He is wonderful.
Master kept telling me this weekend that He's "got me" and i firmly believe He does:).
~His kitten
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