There are 3 ways i am surprised that Master has taught me to serve Him.
i don't mean cleaning or blowjobs or anything like that.
The first thing i think of is opening myself up to being transparent with Him. i don't have a problem telling most people facts about me or my life/past, however, when it comes to what i'm thinking/feeling/want i struggle to be open. i've never really had anyone who truly cared when they asked so i've learned to give pat answers and move on.
Well, Master is a different story, He wants to know me, to know that i will communicate with Him, that i'll be open and honest with Him. He wants that trust built emotionally so it shows when needed physically, if that makes sense.
So, i'm learning to be open and honest with Him. He never has used the things i tell Him against me. i am learning to trust Him and that is an amazing feeling!
The trust i'm building emotionally is why the other things that come to mind are possible.
The second thing i think of that Master can have me do, is cum on command. When We first started, Master had me practice cumming as quickly as possible. When He was there ( on the phone or in person) when i practiced, He would count down to zero and i would cum at zero. Then, one day, Master was on the phone and i was practicing, He told me to stop and then counted down for me to cum without any stimulation and i did!! i was so surprised:). my orgasms are Master's and now they are able to be His anytime, anywhere without any physical touch needed.
The third thing Master has me do that i'm surprised at, is drink from Him. i was very worried about anything to do with His pee very early on but now that He has worked up to my drinking it and my trust in Him has built, it is one of my favorite ways to serve Him.
When i kneel in front of Him and drink i feel so small and submissive. i feel His authority so tangibly. He is already much taller than me, but in this position He is just so much bigger in general. He is in control of the flow and if it is all in my mouth or if He chooses to put it on my body. The taste is a very real reminder that i am His, my body is His to use as He pleases.
Serving Him in this way puts me in the most submissive headspace and it feels so good.
Drinking from Him is something i thought i'd never do, i thought i never would even be able to have Him pee on my body. But, with time and trust built, it is a favorite way to serve Him
~ His loving kitten
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