Wednesday, September 9, 2015

Our first date

Master and i had been talking on the phone and emailing only 1 week when We met for Our first date. As i said before, We live 3+ hours apart so We met in the middle and it was my job to plan the date. i planned for Us to go bowling and to dinner but that was all i planned.

When i arrived at the bowling alley, Master was there waiting for me. In the week leading up to this date, i had asked a few times if He was going to kiss me on Our first date and He said , "I'll kiss you when I feel like it, where I feel like it and in the manner I feel like." Well, i walked up to Him in the bowling ally and He took my face and kissed me, long and soooo good :).  Master said He could tell how nervous i was when i walked in so He decided to kiss me to help me calm down :).

Bowling and dinner went very well and We were finished fairly early. Master had told me to plan for 6 hours but i didn't know He was serious, boy do i wish i had listened now! lol 

Anyway, We ended up going and walking around outside and talking and it was wonderful :). We talked so easily and Master even began introducing me to a few things like holding my hands behind my back tightly while He kissed me, or holding my throat with my back against Him while He talked to me in my ear (still one of my favorite things He does!). Nothing came up that i was not okay with, i enjoyed the things He did and wanted more. i kept Master out past the 6 hours i had been given so, as We were getting in Our cars to leave, Master told me to turn around, place my hands on the roof and bend over. i did what He said and was quite surprised when He whispered in my ear that i had disobeyed and was now going to be punished. Master spanked me right there in the parking lot. There were a few other people around but no one too terribly close, though i am sure they could have seen/heard Us if they wanted to.


Turns out, i really enjoyed being spanked... i didn't even realize there were people anywhere close by until after and Master pointed them out. 


That was how Master introduced me to the way He would handle if i disobeyed (though now He uses a leather belt because i enjoy His hand too much). 


Master told me later that He did that not only because i had earned the punishment but also to see my reaction. i had tried to run away from Him and not figure out this type of relationship only 4 days prior so He wanted my reaction. If i was going to run away from Him for good, He thought it would be after the spanking.


Obviously, i didn't run away, and even though i have earned a few more spankings, Master is very patient with me and helps me understand why i have earned a punishment if it isn't blatantly obvious to me already. i do not enjoy being punished at all... i end up crying and feeling worthless and all kinds of crazy that isn't fun to Master or me so i try to just be His good girl as much as i possibly can so He can enjoy using me and not worry about punishments.

my entire drive home that night after Our first date and my first punishment i kept thinking, am i crazy to want more of that ??!!?? i had enjoyed Him so much!!! i liked Him holding my hands tightly behind me (i had always wanted to try being tied up) and i LOVED when He held my throat and made me a little light headed and whispered in my ear... i was smiling and basking in the good thoughts from things i didn't know if they were okay to like... but i knew i liked them and i knew i had to figure out more. i never wanted to run away from Him over the public spanking.. in fact, i haven't wanted to run away from Him at all since Our first date. There certainly are things that Master says He wants to try, or for me to research and prepare for , that scare me but i trust Him, He's given me no reason not to. 

This first date was just over 3 months ago and i still am learning and working toward being the best i can be for Master but that night i knew i wanted to do everything in my power to become His and i am working on it every day.

Time to say my nightly mantra and get to bed so i can workout and get closer to being my physical best for my Master in the morning :).

~His kitten

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