~ things like being tied up during sex had always interested me, but i had never voiced that interest
~i crave someone to be in charge, to tell me what to do and where i stand with them, but i had always taken on this role in my previous relationship because he wasn't at all a take charge person
~ i hate playing games, i want people to know how i feel, what i'm thinking and i don't like hiding these things from anyone, especially someone i am interested in romantically
When my Master approached me online, He began the conversation with such confidence i was immediately drawn in, despite the 3+ hour travel distance between us. We live in different states, not something i ever though i would consider. Master was so interesting (a word He does NOT like me to use often :) ) and i was drawn in from the beginning. We talked about all kinds of things the first couple days but He started to introduce the idea of a Dominate/submissive relationship pretty early on. We talked about roles each person should play in the relationship and that morphed into deeper conversation, i won't bore you all with the exact details. A week later, We were on Our first date and i was hooked!
After the first date, Master began talking in more detail, having me email Him and change my capitalization to what you are seeing here, He is always capitalized, His name is no longer used, but Master and other honorifics are, and i am always lowercase, even when/if my name is used. We have other special names for each other, but here i will only use Master.
Two weeks and THOUSANDS of emails later, i was on my way to my Master's home for the first time(thankfully i enjoy driving and don't mind the 3+hours to see Him, it is so worth it!). During the 2 days i was there, Master helped me see more what serving Him would be like, sexually and in other ways. Thankfully, Master doesn't mind all my questions (i had NO IDEA what was involved in a BDSM relationship much less a 24/7 D/s one!) and He is very patient with me.
Aside from the way i was to address Him and email Him, i had no rules until that weekend. i was given my first couple of rules and i broke both of them that weekend, more than once if my memory serves me correctly. Master first punished me by spanking me with His hand... however, that wasn't very effective punishment as We found out quickly i rather enjoyed it ;) . Master tried multiple things but He has no settled on using a leather belt for punishment and it is very effective, i do not like to see the belt come out.
i am making this the condensed version (really, i promise i am!) so, i'll skip a few things and maybe revisit them in other posts.
A few weeks later, i found myself at Master's house again, i believe this was the 3rd weekend there, but this time it was a long weekend, 4 days, and Master made it a training weekend. This will get it's own post as i was very nervous and has no clue what to expect, i'm sure there are others out there wondering as well. Over all, this weekend was intense but very good. i learned more rules and actually started being able to keep them, and really started working on processing pain to serve Master.
We have not had any more official "training weekends" but i see Master almost every weekend and He is always teaching me new things and helping me learn new ways to serve Him.
i am constantly surprised at how cared for and wanted Master makes me feel. This is new for me and i am loving it. i am also surprised at how "right" serving Master makes me feel. This past weekend, i pulled weeds and cleaned His bathroom and i just feel so.. grounded... so "right" when i am able to serve Him. i never knew i could be so openly me, serving and obeying make me happy. i am loving this new life Master has introduced me to and i am forever grateful to Him for showing me and allowing me to serve Him.
i am a masochist, as of now Master has used His hand, a rattan cane, a rubber hose (my favorite!) and a rod from mini blinds to spank me. Master is working on nipple clamps though they are currently my least favorite and hardest pain to process, i am working on getting better at serving Him with them. Master has also tied me up with rope and used handcuffs. The funniest thing so far, was the first weekend i was at Master's house, He put the handcuffs on me just to sit at His feet and watch T.V. but then, He asked me to get Him a soda... with the handcuffs on. i struggled to get to my feet (a very funny and entertaining sight for Master!) and then to figure out how to get the soda out of the box in the refrigerator...i was finally able to do it but it certainly was not easy!
Please feel free to leave a comment with any questions you have, i will do my best to answer all of them that i am comfortable with:). Please remember, i am totally new to blogging and to this life so i am working on being comfortable with exposing this side of myself. Thank you for reading and supporting me!
~His kitten
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