emotions...

Master is house hunting in His new state and i am continuing to work on my weight lots and waiting to join Him.
This past week, Master sent me a picture of a poster for amateur night at a local strip club. This is something i know Master wants me to do at some future point when i've finished my weight loss journey so that didn't surprise me. What did surprise me was the conversation after and the emotions that popped up. i was sexually abused as a young child (5-7 yard old ) and sometimes things come up and are very emotional and i'm not expecting it.
Master showed me that picture and started telling me what to imagine that night being like, with Him there but not up front and all the men looking at me. That's when the emotions hit me. i didn't cry or anything but i certainly felt them, so i told Master. We talked and realized it came down to memories from my abuse as a child and Master told me i should cry or scream or whatever i felt like doing to feel those emotions. Unfortunately i didn't feel a way to let them out at that time. Master said We could work on it when i grey to visit Him soon.
Fast forward 4 days and Master and i are chatting online and looking at houses i've found that i think He may like. Master had me serve Him during this time by holding various poses while He looked over a houses pictures. One particular pose i knew would be hard but i got into it and was holding it to the best of my ability when i started to cry small, cute tears. We call those "His tears" because Master likes tears that are from serving Him. But suddenly the tears switched and were no longer small and cute.... they were HUGE, sobbing tears with all kinds of emotions from Our Sunday discussion. i held my position and sent Master a message to tell Him. He said i could move and i collapsed onto the floor and grabbed a blanket. i lay on my floor, completely covered by my blanket and sobbing for 15 minutes or so.
Afterward, Master did the best aftercare available to Us, He video called and i got to see His face and chat.
Do emotions like this ever hit anyone else like this?
Master said He needs to remember He can push me that hard over the phone, i don't like to be emotional but the thought of getting to serve Him a bit harder during this time is very appealing!!
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