a new phase

Master and i have entered a new phase in Our relationship. He has always been a few hours away but close enough to see every weekend, i mean EVERY weekend for the past10 months... We may have missed 2 weekends.
Now, He is a 15 hour drive away from me. We are truly long distance now.
Last weekend was the first apart and it wasn't easy. i didn't hear from Him at all for a few days because of Him needing to get everything set up in His new place. i was worried He decided to just drop me and be done, that He moved and didn't want me anymore... i tend to do this "catastrophic thinking" and it frustrates me and Master. i try to avoid it and fight it off but so it wins sometimes. i can't do this every weekend!! i need to focus on serving Him to the best of my ability from afar until i can join Him in a few months.
my main ways to serve Him daily are to follow my eating plan (i just started a very strict one the week before He left) and to workout.i can't remember if i have out this on here but, i have lost almost 90 pounds in the Last 18 months, with almost 60 of that since i met Master. So, following my plan and working out is something i do to become my best for Him and it is a very tangible way for me to serve Him, which helps me a lot.
 i also have my mantra to say daily and some daily reporting in to Him that i do regardless of whether i've heard from Him.
i have severe abandonment issues and so Master being so far away is triggering some of that and i'm going to have to learn to know that i am wanted by Him, special to Him, even when i'm not right there with Him.
This is only a phase in Our relationship and it'll be fine but it won't be fun or easy.
i don't know when i'll see Him again, He needs to get His new job going before We can make plans.
We have always head a journal that i write in and take to His house for Him to read if He chooses too. Now that journal is online and i like being able to write anytime i need to without people really knowing what i'm doing but now i don't know if He's reading it.... i like to know He's reading it. i guess it's a way i can see that He's interested in me and my thoughts and feelings. We don't generally discuss what i journal but it's a way for me to communicate even when i don't necessarily intend to.
So, that's Our new phase, me learning not to freak out and Master living in a new state, starting a new job.
Hope things are good with all of you!!
~His kitten